Right, not quite sure where to start but I guess the best thing to do is to apologise profusely to the members I pissed off at the end of 2019 and the beginning of 2020. I'm really truly sorry to those people I either sent bewildering/down right mental messages too as well as those who had to wait ages for parts or in many cases refunds issued by my family who had to step in and sort things out when I went totally bonkers. I never intended to defraud anybody, I simply took on too much while in a precarious mental state and had a total breakdown. I didn't go online for months, at point's I wasn't sure if I was real or where my house was so getting items sent and engaging with buyers really were the least of my concerns.
Mental health seems to be something of a taboo topic, though it seems things are improving a little these day's, though getting help is still a painfully slow process, quite literally in my case, as you'll discover if you read on...
I suffer from Bi-polar disorder/manic depression as well as perhaps some other condition's. I'm still waiting to be properly accessed by a physiatrist, though my current GP is a vast improvement upon my previous doctors and in conjunction with the crisis team has at least prescribed me a selection of psychoactive substances which seem to be keeping me stable. For my entire adult life I've either been put on totally the wrong medications by the NHS or resorted to self medicating with all manner of substance's, which in turn has almost certainly made things worse. I'm not going to go into precise details as this is a highly personal matter but it's amazing I'm alive all things considered. There's some brutal honesty for you, but I feel I owe those members who are really my friends a proper explanation.
I'm still currently recovering from the physical damaged caused by my last psychotic episode in September which saw me hospitalised for a week with quite an array of injury's most of which I have zero recollection of causing to myself. Again I'm not going to go into precise detail but it all started when I broke three bones in my right hand by punching a wall (I have a savage temper), I was taken to hospital which apparently I basically escaped from and by the next morning I'd also smashed my right forearm/wrist to pieces, including a compound fracture of the Radius. I'd fractured my left elbow and cracked four ribs, as well as sporting an interesting selection of cut's and bruises, mainly to my face and upper body but I also had a large abrasion/bruise on my left Shin. I had to wait a week for surgery with a temporary cast/dressing on my right arm as at the end of the day my injury's weren't life threating and my operation was delayed twice by serious RTA's and in one case a fight between eastern European gangs. So I spent a week pumped full of Morphine which I have to confess wasn't entirely unpleasant, then spend between three and four hours in surgery having my right arm/wrist fixed with a selection of metal work. I wasn't fully knocked out completely due to the cracked ribs restricting my breathing which concerned the anaesthetist who proposed doing the procedure under local anaesthetic instead.
So, while I'm much better I'm still currently convalescing, even though the cast and stiches have been removed for sometime I'm still far from in good physical shape. I have to spend a couple of hours every morning carefully excising my right hand/forearm (not in that way) to regain the full range of movement and my left elbow is taking forever to heal as I rebroke it by trying to do too much too soon, note, doing carpentry with two broken arms is retarded. However I can now tackle light tasks and it's basically a case of building up my strength again and letting my body fully heal, if I do something that starts to hurt I have to stop, simple.
Now with all that out of the way I'd like to start being active on the forum again, as I've remained in touch with a couple of member's who say my knowledge would be appreciated by newer members with problems with their cars.
I've got a lot more to update everybody about but this post is already too long and seems to keep glitching, so I'm going upload this now and provide more details in future posts.
Mental health seems to be something of a taboo topic, though it seems things are improving a little these day's, though getting help is still a painfully slow process, quite literally in my case, as you'll discover if you read on...
I suffer from Bi-polar disorder/manic depression as well as perhaps some other condition's. I'm still waiting to be properly accessed by a physiatrist, though my current GP is a vast improvement upon my previous doctors and in conjunction with the crisis team has at least prescribed me a selection of psychoactive substances which seem to be keeping me stable. For my entire adult life I've either been put on totally the wrong medications by the NHS or resorted to self medicating with all manner of substance's, which in turn has almost certainly made things worse. I'm not going to go into precise details as this is a highly personal matter but it's amazing I'm alive all things considered. There's some brutal honesty for you, but I feel I owe those members who are really my friends a proper explanation.
I'm still currently recovering from the physical damaged caused by my last psychotic episode in September which saw me hospitalised for a week with quite an array of injury's most of which I have zero recollection of causing to myself. Again I'm not going to go into precise detail but it all started when I broke three bones in my right hand by punching a wall (I have a savage temper), I was taken to hospital which apparently I basically escaped from and by the next morning I'd also smashed my right forearm/wrist to pieces, including a compound fracture of the Radius. I'd fractured my left elbow and cracked four ribs, as well as sporting an interesting selection of cut's and bruises, mainly to my face and upper body but I also had a large abrasion/bruise on my left Shin. I had to wait a week for surgery with a temporary cast/dressing on my right arm as at the end of the day my injury's weren't life threating and my operation was delayed twice by serious RTA's and in one case a fight between eastern European gangs. So I spent a week pumped full of Morphine which I have to confess wasn't entirely unpleasant, then spend between three and four hours in surgery having my right arm/wrist fixed with a selection of metal work. I wasn't fully knocked out completely due to the cracked ribs restricting my breathing which concerned the anaesthetist who proposed doing the procedure under local anaesthetic instead.
So, while I'm much better I'm still currently convalescing, even though the cast and stiches have been removed for sometime I'm still far from in good physical shape. I have to spend a couple of hours every morning carefully excising my right hand/forearm (not in that way) to regain the full range of movement and my left elbow is taking forever to heal as I rebroke it by trying to do too much too soon, note, doing carpentry with two broken arms is retarded. However I can now tackle light tasks and it's basically a case of building up my strength again and letting my body fully heal, if I do something that starts to hurt I have to stop, simple.
Now with all that out of the way I'd like to start being active on the forum again, as I've remained in touch with a couple of member's who say my knowledge would be appreciated by newer members with problems with their cars.
I've got a lot more to update everybody about but this post is already too long and seems to keep glitching, so I'm going upload this now and provide more details in future posts.
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